A battle, a struggle
Contention, rebuttal
Always caught between decisions
My sight loses its precision
Life’s a blur now, vision begins to fail
Anchored by reluctance, I wish to set sail
But to my avail
Life is not a fairy tale
Big dreams reduced to rubble
This feeling of failure, always so subtle.
I’m blessed today with a bright, morning sun
It shines radiantly, what have I done
To deserve this great day in life
Loving this day, can I have it twice?
The joyful sound of chirping birds
The sight of the rich, luscious grass
Don’t want this twice, I want thirds
Everything’s beautiful, gotta make it last
Clouds are breathing, trees are dancing
Everything wonderful is happening
So lucky to have the luxury of today
Nothing can possibly take this smile away
I wish days like these were available for purchase
Just gotta wait for them. Until then, all I can say is:
Sunshine, sunshine, it’s fine
I feel it in my skin, warmin’ up my mind
Sometimes you gotta give in to win
I love the days when it shines
Whoa, let it shine.
Wake up to the rising hours of the morning
The fatigued yawning is more than what it seems
Weak and feeble joints stretching and mourning
Cries resulting from unfinished dreams
Step outside to a brisk summer wind
Clouds sending zephyrs on an errand
Morning nicotine fix is fixed with a cigarette
Unbeknownst to the imminent and inevitable regret
Inspect the kitchen for something to put on a plate
Making sure the food hasn’t reached its expiration date
Every article of nutriment is decrepit and stale
Just settle with an apple and some ginger ale
The effort that is put into biting an apple
How easy it is to eat after the skin is broken
Acidic juices flowing, the supply is ample
Pieces of skin in between teeth as a token
As the ale descends the throat at a steady rate
A crisp, gaseous burst is sent up as after taste
Discharge of chemicals are spread throughout the chest cavity
Closing the mouth to keep it from spreading, advocating scarcity
This meal is not nutritional, not much of a sensible diet
Deficiency of sustenance, I’ll have to fight it
Cigarettes and malnutrition, all this just to see the morning sun
No one understands. When I see it, I’ll know my day is done.
Amidst a dark sea of nothingness
He floats. Nothing less, nothing more
He does not try to swim to safety
For there are no islands within sight
He does not try to find any
He floats. Nothing less, nothing more
Just as he decides to drown
A sun rises over the gray horizon
It shines brightly and illuminates the sea
Currents full of verve and movement
Patches of clouds full of breath
The water surrounding him warms as the sun
Radiates its energy, refueling every particle
But his body continues to sink
Just as his lungs are about to burst
Just as his consciousness is about to leave him
She reaches into the abyss
And pulls him out of the darkness
Her brightness. Her warmth
Is what brought him back to life
He is swimming. Nothing less, everything more.
A calm, gentle night
Occupies the skies over us
But why are you so heated?
Why do we have to fight
When we can enjoy each other
You love me, you hate me
We argue, we’re distant
I wish you’d look me in the eyes
And tell me how you feel
But reluctance takes over
Silencing your emotions
A game of chess, with only one player
You’ve succumbed to apathy
My efforts fade, and so does our love
We’ve become strangers
I’m going to let you go
So you can find yourself
Because the woman I loved
Is nowhere to be found.
The dancing fumes from the burning tip
Lets me know that art exists
The pain from taking a long drag
Lets me know that I’m alive
The disgusted looks I get from passerbys
Lets me know that I’m not perfect
The inhaling of carcinogens
Puts my troubled mind at ease
The final ashes of the cigarette
Lets me know that nothing lasts forever.
Slowly, slowly we fall
Like a wilted leaf, like a lonely feather
We take our sweet time swaying in the wind
Until we meet our eventual doom
But that’s not what we’re concerned about
Instead of worrying, we dance
From side to side, living in the moment
Unafraid of what will happen
But we all fall anyway
So why worry about the imminent
When you can enjoy what doesn’t last
The moment, this moment
With you, and us
So do not be troubled
Relax, close your eyes, fall
And let’s fall together
Until we reach the ground
Another leaf falls
From this dying tree, as it prepares for the fall
Slowly, slowly we fall.
The crisp, summer wind caresses his face like a blanket
He can taste the salt water when it touches his feet
Tingles run through his body like a current, he can’t help it
Alone on the beach he is, quiet and discreet
Can’t help but think it would end this way
It’s not his fault anyway
He cries every single day
Knowing she’s not here to stay
When he was wrong, she made him right
Gave him motivation when he was tired
Stayed up with him through every night
But now she’s gone, their love has expired
No need for three, he only wants one wish
Forever these memories he wishes to cherish
He walks into the sea
Through nostalgic misery
One last look at the gloomy sun, for the future ahead
Too late for expectations, he’s already dead.
